Thursday, October 30, 2014

Worst 3 Days of Our Lives

Chandler Charles Hurst and Paisley Joan Hurst were born on October 20, 2014, Chandler at 3:06 pm and Paisley at 3:10 pm, at 22 weeks gestational age.  Paisley weighed 14 ounces and was 10 1/2 inches long.  Chandler weighed 1 pound 5 ounces, and was 11 1/2 inches long.  Paisley Joan went to Heaven at 7:15 pm on October 21.  Chandler Charles joined his baby sister in Heaven at 2:55 am on October 22.  Our babies fought so hard.  We miss them and love them so much. 

We feel so empty.  We feel so dead.  My whole family is grieving for our babies.  I hurt like I've never hurt before in my life. 

I don't know when, or if, I'll feel like blogging again. 

Monday, October 20, 2014

Dusty's New Job!!!

Praise the Lord!  Dusty started a new job today!  We knew he would, in God's timing, but man, that wait was horrible!  It's been almost 3 months to the day since Dusty got the news that he'd likely lose his job in 30 days.  Two months of Dusty being at home, out of work, searching for jobs every single day, applying, having phone interviews, office interviews, etc., waiting for the good news that he got one of the jobs he interviewed for.  Although the economy has improved significantly, there are still a lot of people in the job market.  One of our good friends had a position open at his employer that was the same position as what Dusty was applying for.  Our friend's company didn't pay quite where Dusty hoped to be, so he didn't apply for the position.  Well, our friend told us that they had 35 qualified applicants for the position!  35!!  That is crazy and had me very worried.  That's a lot of people in the hunt for the same job as Dusty. 

After several phone and on-site interviews, Dusty interviewed for a position, and left the interview feeling very hopeful.  Dusty made an immediate connection with the HR rep, and when interviewing on-site, felt right at home.  We prayed this was the job God intended for him to have, since it felt so right to Dusty.  Well, after making the 2nd round, Dusty got the call almost 2 weeks ago that they were offering the job to him!  Praise God! 

Dusty started that job today, and I can't wait to hear how it went.  I hope and pray this job is the perfect fit for Dust!

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Itty and Bitty...Otherwise Known As......

Paisley Joan and Chandler Charles!!!
 
 
I meant to post this weeks ago!  Itty's (baby girl) name is Paisley Joan, which, Joan is pronounced Joann, but spelled like my mother's middle name.  Paisley is a name that Dusty and I fell in love with, and have had picked out for quite a while.  Bitty's (baby boy) name is Chandler Charles.  Chandler is my mother's maiden name, and Charles is my father's first name.  We have known for years and years we wanted to use Charles in a name.  A few years ago, we were discussing names, and talking through names that had family ties, and we decided we also wanted to use Chandler in the name.  Then, we put it with Charles and thought it had the perfect ring to it. 

Disclaimer *** I know it seems like they are all named after my family, but we did have hopes for two boys so we could name them after both our father's, who have both passed away.  When we do have another boy, his name will be Kannon Rockford.  Rockford is Dusty's dad's name, and Kannon was the very first name Dusty and I ever picked out.   
 
Although initially we wished for two boys, I cannot even begin to tell you how in love with our babies we are!  We are so happy to be buying blue and pink things!  :)  We can't wait to meet both Chandler and Paisley, and love them, and hold them, and just be their parents! 
 

Monday, October 6, 2014

20 Week Update

Wow!  Here I am, 20 weeks pregnant!  I almost can't believe it!  The first 20 weeks have flown by.  I almost hesitate to write that, hoping I don't jinx myself and make the last 20 (or however many I go) crawl by. 

Dusty and I went to my 20 week ultrasound last Monday, a week early.  This was our "big" ultrasound, which I'd had several people ask me about, but didn't actually understand what that meant or entailed.  I learned it meant lots of measuring!  Thankfully, everything was measuring great and they did not see any concerns.  We also confirmed that Baby A is a boy and Baby B is a girl!  I had a slight worry that we'd get to this ultrasound and find out Baby B was actually a boy, after we'd finished our registry and everything! 

Baby A was measuring 19 weeks and 4 days, and his heart beat was 159.  He would move from his side to his back during the ultrasound, and at one point, decided to show off his feet to us, or at least one foot.  I think he has his daddy's feet, as they looked huge!!  We were joking about how big his feet looked and the ultrasound tech was like, yep, but they are only about a centimeter long.  Absolutely crazy!! 

Here is Bitty -

 
Baby B is quite hilarious!  She is measuring 19 weeks 1 day, and her heart rate was 145.  She laid with her feet up in front of her face the entire time!  At one point, it looked like she kicked herself in her head and then rubbed her head with her hand!  It was so adorable!  She is definitely flexible, for now!  Not sure where she gets that though!  Haha! 
 
Here is Itty -
 
 
I still haven't felt them kick and known for sure it was them.  It's really crazy to see them on the ultrasound moving around but not feel it!  I can't wait until I feel them for sure.  As far as how I'm feeling, I still have nausea every once in a while.  It seems to go away for a few days, and then I'll randomly get sick.  It doesn't seem like eating certain things drives it, as I can't really narrow down anything I've eaten that caused it.  My cravings haven't been too crazy so far.  I did crave orange sherbet very randomly one evening last week.  Luckily, my husband is amazing and we have a neighborhood market close to the house!  Dusty has been tracking my cravings throughout the pregnancy, and there haven't been too many.  I think the first was gummy worms, which resulted in me buying a huge bag and then getting tired of them pretty quickly!  That's probably the oddest craving at this point! 
 
I'm still having a constant stuffy nose, which I've had pretty much the entire pregnancy.  It's now also a constant bloody nose when I blow my nose.  That is getting annoying!  My pregnancy acne is terrible, which is also annoying.  Sadly, sleeping is already getting tough, as it's hard to get comfortable.  Thank goodness my sister-in-law got me a body pillow for my birthday.  That has really helped me sleep better at night.  I haven't been sleeping very well, and wake up a lot during the night (mostly to go to the bathroom), but the pillow helps so much!  However; all of this will be more than worth it when we have our two babies in our arms! 
 
Here is a pic of me from Saturday.  I finally bought a few more maternity clothes and absolutely love the jeans I bought!  So comfy!  My work threw us a shower on Saturday and I didn't want to wear the same "office" maternity clothes I've been rotating each day for the last few weeks.   
 
 
I'll post a blog update revealing their names and all about my work shower very soon!  And lastly, one last picture of the Bitties!  Just love them so much!