I haven’t blogged for a while.
The truth is, I don’t feel like I have much to say these days.
I’m struggling to get by day to day. Being a full-time mommy and a full-time working mommy is HARD!
I think I’m in a rut. Things are the same, every.single.day.
I LOVE, more than anything, going home to Kanon and Remi and getting my 1 hour with them. One…
I see them in the morning when I wake them up to change their diapers and hit the road. And then by the time I get home in the evening, Dusty and I have one hour to play with them, feed them dinner, bathe them and get them to bed, before eating dinner, watching a little tv and going to bed ourselves, just to get up and do it all over again.
Being a working parent is freaking hard! I knew it would be, but I didn’t realize just how hard it would be.
My job is demanding and requires more of me then I think I’m even willing to give at the moment and I’m just lost with what to do. I used to really enjoy my job. Now…I’m not sure. I think I still do and I think I’m just in a rut.
I don’t know why I’m in a rut, though. I mean, life is pretty good. We have Kanon and Remi and we are so happy with them.
We have plans to move forward with a couple of things in our personal life (no, not more IVF), which I will post about soon, so I should be excited about that. I am, somewhat excited, but I should be more excited, I guess.
I don’t know, I guess it all just feels blah right now. Is that what mid-life is? Blah? It shouldn’t be, should it? I hate even saying that because Kanon and Remi make it so much fun and fill our lives with so much joy. But outside of my one hour a day with them…
Anyway, this is just random babble. I’ll stop now and try to post something more meaningful soon!