Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Chandler & Paisley's Due Date...One Year Later

One year ago would have been 40 weeks for Chandler & Paisley.  Wow.  It's honestly so hard to believe.  I knew we'd never make it to 40 weeks, but this date is still one of their dates.  It is still something we will always associate with them.  

A very sweet friend reached out and messaged me earlier today, letting me know she was thinking of us on their due date.  That she remembered...I just can't even describe what that means to us.  It brought me to tears.  

As I sit here today, I think about how I reconcile Kanon & Remi with Chandler & Paisley.  Kanon & Remi wouldn't be kicking me right this minute if Chandler & Paisley were here, which is so bittersweet.  Although I'm so excited for Chandler & Paisley's little brother and little sister, it is one of those moments where you realize that if Chandler & Paisley had been born, Kanon & Remi wouldn't be here, at this moment.  I fully believe no matter when we transferred Kanon & Remi, they would have become Kanon & Remi, so eventually, we would have had another set of twins, just not this soon.  

I can only imagine what a year of our Chandler and Paisley would be like.  They'd be getting so big, and running around getting into things at the house.  We would have had their first birthday party by now.  They'd love sweets, with Dusty and me as their parents, there is absolutely no way they wouldn't love sweets.  

Dusty and I talk all the time about how they would love our dogs, and how we could just see them standing at the back door pounding the glass, playing with Banjo and Winston.  Dust wanted so badly to wrestle with them and play on our living room floor, letting them crawl and jump all over him.  I would have loved to have sat and watched that for hours.  

I picture them both blonde, with Paisley having hair about to her shoulders by now.  Chandler would be starting to get bigger than his sister, taller, and starting to pull ahead slightly in size.  I picture their blue eyes (I still think they would probably have been blue, but maybe green...how Dust and I wish we knew).  Most of all, I wish Dusty and I could hear them talk, say Mommy and Daddy, experience their cries, their giggles and their snuggles.  

Oh how much we miss our Bitties.  

Friday, February 19, 2016

Our Babies' Names!!

I honestly can't believe I haven't shared this yet!  I don't know how I've blogged for a good bit of this pregnancy and haven't even mentioned our babies' names!  Their names are...

Kanon Rockford & Remington Ann

We've had Kanon (pronounced Cannon) picked out for such a long time.  We first heard it in 2002, so before we were even married, and fell in love with it!  Incredibly, it has stuck ever since.  Then, Rockford is Dusty's dad's first name.  We knew we wanted to name our sons after our fathers, who have both passed away.  Chandler's middle name is Charles, which is my dad's name, and Kanon's is Rockford.  

I'll admit, Remington is pretty new to our names mix.  For whatever reason, our girl names have fluctuated a great deal more than our boy names.  We probably started liking Remington about a year or so ago, but didn't settle on it until we found out we were having twins and decided if one was a girl, she would be Remington.  As for Ann, Ann is the middle name of one of Dusty's grandmas, the middle name of one of his sisters, and the middle name of one of his nieces.  I also like to think it kind of ties in my mom's and Paisley's middle names, which is Joan (pronounced Jo-ann).  

So, those are their names.  We love them and they are perfect, just like Chandler & Paisley.  Our sweet babies.

Monday, February 15, 2016

Twenty-eight Weeks!!!!!

TWENTY-EIGHT WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  We made it to 28 weeks!   Yay!  I am so excited.  I can hardly believe it!  It’s such a big milestone for the babies’ development, and Dusty and I are so thankful that we have made it this far.  Of course, we continue to pray God allows me to carry these babies as close to term as possible!

We had another growth scan last Wednesday, and my mom got to come as well!  It was really fun sharing the ultrasound time with her!  We got to see a 3d of our little boy, but our little girl was tucked down by my bladder and facing my spine.  Towards the end of the appointment, we got to see her legs up by her brother’s, but that was it.  Silly girl.  Sassy just like her sister!

The babies are doing great.  Their measurements are right in line with where they should be.  Our little boy is measuring a week ahead, but is only measuring 1 oz bigger than his sister at 2 pounds 7 ounces.  He must be a long, skinny boy!  And of course, our little girl is measuring 2 pounds 6 ounces.  Their heartbeats sounded great, and thank God, everything looked good!  We didn’t measure me, so I don’t know what I’m measuring at this point.  I did gain another pound from the week before, but I’m perfectly fine with that.  The babies are growing and getting big!

Dr. H did ask me if I was having contractions and said he wouldn’t be surprised if I was and maybe just not feeling them yet.  That really kind of threw me for a loop.  He said it would be perfectly normal if I was, and if I had more than 5 an hour, to go in.  Honestly, my PTSD surrounding contractions is terrible.  I missed contractions with Chandler and Paisley and I’m so scared I’m going to miss them with these babies.  I did have a long discussion with the nurse from my insurance’s Future Mom’s program regarding what contractions feel like, and I’m trying to be more aware and cautious, but I’m still so scared.  I’m praying I’ll know what to do when the time comes. 

My next appointment isn’t until February 29th.  I’m anxious to know what I’ll be measuring then, given I’m so far ahead as it is!!  I’ll be 30 weeks then, so I’m going to say I’ll be measuring 39 weeks at that point.  We’ll see! 

I’ll update soon with the babies’ names.  I realized as I was typing this I still haven’t done so, even though we’ve known their names since well before transfer day!  

And lastly, a couple of pics from the last two weeks.  I don't know if it was the outfit or if my bump really grew that much over the course of a week!!!

Friday, February 5, 2016

26 Week Update

So here we are, 26 weeks!  Technically, as I type this, 26w5d!  I'm still just taking it one week at a time, but I can't wait to hit that 28 week point!  

Not a lot has happened since my last post.  I do think the two rounds of antibiotics that I took to get rid of my UTI led to a yeast infection, even though I was taking a daily pro-biotic.  I'm being treated for the yeast infection, as my doctor thought I likely had one, but didn't think if he did a swab, it would show up.  So, hopefully that will clear up after this dose of meds.

I still feel pretty good.  Work is picking up and I'm trying to slowing work up my hours.  I'm working 6 days a week now, with Saturday being a half day.  My hours haven't picked up to where they normally would be at this time, and I'm ok with that because I'm protecting these babies and doing what I feel is in the best interest of this pregnancy and what I need to do to keep these babies in me for as long as possible.  

So...that all being said, it's been rather boring and boring is good!  Thank God for boring!  

How far along - 26 weeks 

Measuring - 35 weeks

Total weight gain - up 14 pounds

Movement - Lots!  At times, these babies are a little rough with momma, but that's ok!  I don't mind at all.

Food cravings - Still the chocolate chip ice cream, which has been out of stock at our local neighborhood market...what the heck?  Is there a chocolate chip shortage I'm not aware of?!?!  

Sleep - The last week and a half has been terrible.  I'm comfortable, so I don't really know what is going on.  I'm waking 3 times or so to go to the bathroom, which isn't terrible, but it's taking me a long time to fall asleep and then I've been waking around 4:00 and taking an hour to go back to sleep.

And lastly, my 26 week bump pic.